|what I'm doing here
||[Sep. 22nd, 2007|11:44 am]
I was at first reluctant to start a blog here at LiveJournal. I didn't want to fall in with the massive emo-scene crowd. Also because when you write about your personal life on a site like LJ, someone you know is bound to find out what drugs you're addicted to/who your sleeping with/what you did last summer, etc. I learned that the hard way when I was younger. I still haven't gotten my old account deleted and the entries were very down and emo, and most of all, QUITE personal. I was so naive that I had no mind whatsoever to at least try to conceal my identity. I payed no attention to the whole internet safety thing. Yes, I was emo. But I was emo before people made fun of you and called you stupid names like: emo. Now I'm not trying to bash anyones lifestyle. emo it up baby. I sure did. and I believe that everyone does. Anyone who has any intellectual activity gets sad when they are going through the intense spike in hormones and wanna-be poeticism that is puberty. and they write beautiful faux-suicide-notes and complaints about how life just isnt fair in their LJ... but most of us grow out of it.
So anyway on with it: I finally cracked and moved to LJ because I like to write. More accurately: I like to write about me. I'm pretty much totally narcissistic. I write about the things I care about. I write about things that interest me: me; myself, my life. And thats it. In its purest and simplest form.
I used to blog on another site (Iam.bmezine.com) but I'm not sure that I fit so well there. People are judgemental. way more so than any one might expect, considering that they're a community for the modified. I still am a member on IAM, but ony for the forums that I frequented. and that will soon end; as my subscription ends in November and I do not plan on renewal. So, alas... I'm here. being stupid. writing my thoughts with no one. I've had an LJ before and I know how it goes. I know how you make friends. And maybe I will, or maybe I wont make LJ friends. I'm just not sure yet.